JJkun.

Real friends are hard to find.

Some people shock the hell out of you but what else can you do except laugh and move on.  Thank God I have real friends I can count on who care about me.  Not just what’s in it for them.

Blog.

A week ago today I opened up my shop!  I am pretty excited about it.  Although I don’t have much in the shop right now, I’ll be adding new things as others get sold.  I hope to continuously have around 25-30 items in my store.  

I’ve recently started playing Final Fantasy XIII and so far I like it!  The battle system is kinda ridiculous, but I like the paradigm system built into it.  Lightning is really amazing.  Think I might have a bit of a crush on her… minus her ridiculously colored hair. -_-

Today I’ve just been catching up on letters and staying cool indoors.  I think I’m about ready for this ridiculous heat to end and for autumn breezes to swoop in.  One letter has been sitting in my hanging mail pouch on my wall for the longest time as I’ve had the most conflicted feelings for the girl who wrote it.  I’ve not known how to handle what I’m feeling and make sense of it, although things are starting to become clearer as I’ve sought out some advice from close friends.  What this girl did hit a nerve with me, a very personal nerve.  Cheating on her fiancee (not boyfriend… fiancee) whom she always told me she was happy with, but after everything blew up and she was away from him and in the arms of someone else, she told me how she never really loved her fiancee and was only comfortable with him.  All this time she asked for my advice and I always told her to talk to her fiancee or end things with him before moving on to someone else.  Did she?  No, she did what she wanted.  Why even ask me for my advice?  The whole thing reminded me of that slut ex of mine, Laur, who is the exact same person.  She did what she wanted, not truly giving consideration to someone else’s feelings and doing what is right by another person and played “poor me” afterwards to what?.. justify treating someone else so horribly?  It’s been difficult for me to make sense of what to do with my penpal.  It’s her personal life, her relationships, and her choices to live with forever and even if I don’t agree—at all— with how she handled the situation, she showed me what kind of person she really is.  I don’t think I want to have a friend like her in my life, we obviously see the world and the people in it very differently.  How can you respect someone who treats others like that?  Who is so selfish and dependently goes from one person to the next?  How can someone live like that and think it’s alright?  It’s not alright.

Blog, it’s time to.

I finalized my very first label order (huge, btw, 255 labels!) using my newly designed invoice, packing slip, and packaging!  Talk about putting a smile on my face!  It looked so awesome.  Of course I had to take a pic.  I’m very proud.  Recently, I’ve been creating new kinds of labels that will hopefully diversify my …. o_o label portfolio.  C & I talked about the idea of me opening up an Etsy shop for my custom labels and the same idea has come up from other people, too!  I’m really excited others are saying the same thing and I think it would be a great thing for me, so I’m considering it.  When I’m part time at work, I think it would be a lot of fun to take orders.  And Etsy is a great site, I love shopping there, why not sell there?  It might be wonderful to have a small shop like that. ^^  I wonder what kind of requests I’d get… hmm!

A few weeks ago I decided to go with the ArcS.  The more I thought about it the better the choice was for me to get it.  So I did!  And it came in the mail yesterday!  :D  So I’m going to be trying to figure tha pretty little thang out on my trip as well as a new name for it.  Maybe I’ll go nuts and give it a female name this time.  You never can tell.

<3 JJ

Update!

Ah am very tired today.  More so than usual, but I can’t figure out why.  Maybe I’ve cracked finally after all the cloudy rainy mornings.

I’ve only one more gift to shop for and that is for my cousin, BJ.  Each year my family gets together on Thanksgiving and draws names for who gets who a gift on Christmas.  It’s tradition.  I’m always happy to draw one of my female cousin’s names because sometimes I think it’s easier shopping for women.  But I know exactly what to get BJ!  All my gifts for penpals and friends not close to me have been mailed out already and everything I need for everyone else is either on it’s way from an online store or already with me and wrapped.  I feel very accomplished.  I got another of C’s gifts yesterday and I had to check it out again and again before I wrapped it.  Gasp.  It’s so amazing.  I really hope she likes it more than any of the others… :3  

What’s dangerous to me about shopping online for other people is I sometimes find things (usually included in a holiday discount of some sort) and I think, if I get it now, I can get the discount whereas if I wait until after the holidays… I’ll have to pay full price.  Sounds reasonable, right?  Well after shopping and getting a few things for myself, I figure it needs to stop at some point.  Merrymerry to me.  I’ve already gotten such amazing things this year: my MBP, the Kobayashi Maru earlier this year, Hesher, my racecar! I love him, I can tear it up on the road.  The tablet.. all in all I like the tablet, but I sometimes find myself wishing I had gotten the Cintiq 12WX or 21UX.  Maybe something in the future.  I could start saving for one now.

I’ve been getting a lot of requests in the past few weeks for becoming new penpals with people from all around the world.  I’m pretty excited about it!  I love making new friends.  Trouble is, some of them can leave you with a :| on your face.  I recently got aquatinted with a younger boy on Facebook and we hit it off really well and really fast.  I don’t have a problem with homosexuals, I myself am currently in such a relationship, but gay boys always seem to leave me with a :| on my face and this boy was no exception.  After being friends for about 5 minutes I come to find out he was only nice to me because he thought I was a gay boy and single to boot. :|  How that is possible, I don’t know.  It’s not the first time that has happened, so I know the turnout is always the same:  not available?  Goodbye! Stupid fucking gay boys.  Sigh.  I’m sad I don’t hear from him anymore, tho.  He was funny.  Oh well.  Such is life.  People come, people go.  Who sticks around is what really matters most. c:

<3

JJ